Trapped (poem by me)

People saying hi
& acting so friendly
I watch them walk by
but I can’t say anything
‘cause I’m trapped
in this glass box.
It’s all around me
It’s fear, anxiety, worry.
What should I say?
Who should I be?
No one can tell I’m trapped
Inside of me.

God sees.
Send down the rope
& be my rescue
so I can be free
from all that vexes me.
This is easy for You, Lord,
for You are strong and mighty.

The Lord your God is with you, he is mighty to save… -Zephaniah 3:17

© 2016 Kim Bond

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Just One More (poem by me)

Let’s have a drink or maybe two,
I notice this habit sticks to me
But not to you
I shake it off
Now it’s stuck like glue.

What will my family say?
I’ve disappointed them again,
How can I face God and pray?
I used to speak with Him so open.

Savior, save me from this spinning circle,
Relief, regret, repent, repeat,
Help, I’m merely mortal,
Today I’ll rise up, overcome, and defeat.

Our God is a God who saves; from the Sovereign LORD comes escape from death. —Psalm 68:20

*This poem is not actually about my own struggle. Yet, it is easy for us (as Christians) to relate to this vicious cycle since we all must wrestle with our flesh against sin.  May we all press onward to the goal of Jesus Christ together. I pray the Lord helps you to overcome whatever you are battling today! (If you were interested in my own testimony of deliverance, you read it in a blog HERE.)

© 2016 Kim Bond

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Adored (sestina by me)

You will be born and adored,
You will scorn your parents,
For making rules you break,
Just prior to idolizing friends,
And yourself,
Without knowing God.

One day you meet God,
And you feel adored,
Even when you are by yourself,
He lifts your distaste for your parents,
He gives you new friends,
There’s just one habit you cannot break.

If this one habit you could break,
You could find peace in God,
Like your friends,
This habit you once adored,
This sin hidden from your parents,
It fosters a hatred for yourself.

You are stuck with yourself,
Or else you’d make a clean break,
You’d confess to your parents,
You’d show your face to God,
And be once more adored.

You fall back in with old friends,
The demons bore holes inside yourself,
In the mirror a face that can’t be adored,
Your habit no longer takes a break,
You have sworn off God,
You’ve been kicked out by your parents.

Like an orphan with no parents,
Like a loner with no friends,
You call up in desperation to God,
And surrender yourself,
You are full of heart break,
And you are once more adored.

Then your parents take you back in and you are adored,
Your friends make amends but you’ve found a friendship no one can break,
It’s between God and yourself.

But God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.—Romans 5:8

© 2016 Kim Bond

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Deliverance From Strongholds

When I was a non-Christian interacting with Christians, I had mixed feelings about them. On the one hand, I admired them for not cheapening their lives with the activities that accompany a sinful lifestyle. On the other hand, I assumed Christians had no fun since they did not exercise my idea of “freedom.” To me, freedom included the use of foul language, drinking excessively, and a lot of other things. After I became a Christian, I realized had not been free at all. I had been a slave to my sins, and Christians were the ones who were really free.

I began to pursue my own freedom and explored the ideas of repentance and deliverance. I learned if I repent of something, I turn my back on it. I give it up and don’t look back on it longingly. I learned from the Bible that if God delivers me from a sin, then He will give me the strength to overcome it. He will take it away from me. In the story of my salvation, I usually do not linger on the experience of repentance and deliverance even though it was an important part of my spiritual growth.

It was actually quite miraculous the way the Lord instantly helped me to repent of my sins and gave me strength to give them up, but that makes the story anticlimactic. There is simply not much to tell. I admit I did backslide into some of my sinful habits but soon realized they were not fun anymore. In contrast, there was a sin that I simply could not seem to give up. That was smoking cigarettes.

I continued smoking for sixteen years after I became a Christian even though I wanted to stop. I wanted to repent and be delivered just as I was from the other sins, but this sin was a stronghold in my life. I would not let go of it even though I knew I was a slave to it. I tried the nicotine patch several times with no success, but I tried it again with a prescription smoking cessation medication with a different result.

I was suddenly suffering from multiple side effects including frequent anxiety attacks. Worse yet, the desire to smoke was still raging inside of me. During one unusually long panic attack, I cried out to God and begged him to make the panic attack. Suddenly and audibly, I heard him. He promised to make the panic attack stop if I would quit smoking. Then my panic attack stopped. Strangely, my desire to smoke also disappeared in a sudden way. I felt a little tempted that evening, and the next morning the temptation was almost gone completely.

The Lord had miraculously delivered me from several sins early on in my spiritual walk. Later, He also delivered me a stronghold: smoking. He is an awe-inspiring God who loves His children too much to let us be slaves to sin. He wants to draw us away from sin so we can enjoy a closer love relationship with Him. I pray God delivers you from every sin including your stronghold in a sudden and miraculous way so you can see He is our Almighty God. Thanks for reading and God bless!

 

 

 

Wonderful Counselor (prayer)

Is(This is an intercessory prayer for persons suffering from addiction.)

Holy Father,

Make this addicted person a humble student

In the school of Christ,

Be their Teacher and Counselor,

Be their Comforter and Light,

Show Christ to their soul,

Lead them to the cross,

Make their textbook Your Word,

Show them Christ’s resurrected body—

The anatomy of holes in His hands

And in His deeply pierced side.

Open their eyes to see their sins

And that the just punishment

For them is eternal death,

Yet You have poured out Your mercy by

Allowing Your Son to pay for those sins

With Your blood—

Satisfying justice,

Plus adding faith and love.

Open their understanding to Scripture,

And reveal the mystery of the Trinity,

Awaken them to the truth

That life is a gift to be cherished,

Assign them a new craving—

To know You more,

Bless them with cheerful thoughts,

Steered away from their fixations,

Break the enchantment of their addictions

And deliver them from their vexations.

In Christ’s Name, Amen.

© 2015 Kim Bond

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Deliverance From Addiction

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We fool ourselves into thinking we only harm ourselves when we give into addiction. I’m not sure what your habit is, but evil tends to radiate and multiply. Crooked people are in the business of perpetuating addictions. By consuming porn, we drive the sex trafficking industry. When we pay for cigarettes, tobacco farmers use our dollars to hire pre-teen prostitutes on the other side of the world. Even the most innocent-sounding addictions ruin relationships with the people we love the most.

So now we have given the pain in our hearts to God for healing. We have chosen to chase negative thoughts away with the truth of God’s Word. Additionally, we chose healthier ways for us to fulfill our need for comfort, rest, adventure and escape as we draw nearer to God in our daily life. Now it’s time to wrestle against the addiction itself.

Every time we don’t give into an addiction, we are stronger for the next time we are tempted.
 In Matthew 4:1-11, Jesus was tempted by the devil in the desert. Satan tried over and over again until Jesus had resisted every temptation. Then the devil left Jesus alone. When the devil realizes we are not giving in, he too will leave us.

We are prideful creatures. Some part of us is still sure we can give up on our own even though we have failed so many times. Somehow our soul must try until it is broken. Then it will cry out for God in some mysterious uttering, and God will rescue all those who need and want His rescuing. He is our Deliverer! So try your very hardest over and over again until God shows up. This may include signing up for porn blockers, joining support groups like Celebrate Recovery, or something else. Just don’t give up until you are delivered from your addiction. Earn your victor’s crown. God is right beside you.

I know the Lord as my Deliverer from my cigarette addiction. (If you are interested, the link to my testimony about God’s deliverance from smoking is on Christian Chat: http://christianchat.com/testimonies/66033-nonsmoking-please.html)

© 2015 Kim Bond

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Thoughts for the Addicted

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Even if you no longer feel convicted about your addiction, in your heart you know it is hindering your relationship with God. You know it is ruining your joy. God wants to help you make changes so you will not be stuck in your addiction forever…or start other addictions. So let’s try something new!

When you think of resisting your addiction, do negative thoughts keep you from even trying? Your thought life could be a reason your addiction still has the power to overcome your desire to be free of it. Consciously stop the thought instead of letting it boss you around.

Here’s one example of defeatist thinking. My parents were alcoholics so I am an alcoholic. It’s in my DNA. I was genetically prone to drinking. No one can change fate. 

Once you have stopped the negative thought, think a positive thought. Focus on the deliverance God has already given you. Recite something like this:

  • We are children of God (Galatians 3:26)!
  • We are being transformed into the Lord’s likeness (2 Cor. 3:18).
  • God’s Spirit gives me freedom (2 Cor. 3:17).

Many scientists think our DNA can change. This aligns with what many pastors are preaching…that as adopted children we gain access to Jesus’ DNA and certainly His power over sin and the devil. We have been delivered, and we are tapping into that power right now.

Be sure to meditate on God’s Word so you know the truth. If you have turned your pain over to God and forgiven yourself and others with us in the last blog, then you have no more excuse to feel sorry for yourself. Take up your sword and fight!

Christian rapper Trip Lee performs an incredible song called “Robot” about how we all are born as robots controlled by our flesh and the devil but that our lives can change when we follow God. I hope the lyrics to this song are an inspiration to you:

**To my friends, who are still on lockdown
Still controlled by their passions, stop now
He can free everybody from the top down
If you’re freed up, say this with me right now…I am not a robot

© 2015 Kim Bond

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